Ok, I admit it… I suck!

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It’s been a long long time since I have written anything here, but I had a lot going on in my life and to be honest I simply could not be bothered. Now I am back and I hope some of you are still with me and haven’t deserted me.

So what’s new? I am being made redundant and have to find a new job asap which really sucks. My eldest is moving out on saturday, which in a way is cool because I do hope it will improve our relationship to some extent. I have also gained about half a stone and am now weighing in at 116.5kg when I checked two days ago. My doctor has said I am producing too much androgens, so right now I am keen to get back to working out again but also worried that I over do it and end up building up too much muscle… so no weights and all cardio for me I guess.

What worries me the most is how addicted to carbs I seemed to have gotten since I stopped the celebrity slim, so expect a really cranky Moni over the next few days.

Anyhow, I am back and it feels good to write this and I am hoping that you guys are as supportive as you were before even though I suck big time at sticking to things lol Will post more tomorrow after my weigh in… Oh and then I will actually fill you in about my maybe a little insane goal and why I have set it hehe. So keep your eyes peeled. Night night 

Water retention + cake = disaster

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Oh so frustrated today! Got on the scales and they shown me a plus of 4 lbs… I’m thinking WTF?! But then thinking about it, it’s pretty much all my own fault. Slacking with exercise and having a few extra treats, I really should not be surprised.

On the other hand, my anaemia is doing my head in at the moment. It’s a week before injection time and I feel total and utter rubbish. After being up for an hour I am ready for bed again, the minute I start moving I have palpitations from hell, so that makes exercising near impossible.

Going to have to stop drinking coffee and stuff like that and get onto drinking more water and potter around the house a little more. I have a dining room table and chairs that are waiting to get sanded down and painted, that should provide me a little exercise I guess :-). Not going to bother with a weigh-in tomorrow as I don’t want to depress myself even more.

Bit of rubbish…

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This week was less than average so far 😦 Seem to be having to cope with a lot  of fatigue and dizzy spells and still got this cold virus lingering, so no working out either. Might have a little ten minute spin on the rower later just to kick start the ole metabolism again, as my weightloss is really slowing down again. Got to start work in five minutes and have no motivation whatsoever… if only i could find a better job

A SMILES :-))))

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YAY…. 112.9kg this week *does happy dance*. I am sure if I wouldn’t have been sick I could have lost a whole lot more… Oh well, let’s not be ungrateful . Next stop 110 or no, I shall be ambitious and go for 109kg by the end of the month. Now that I am a bit better I should be able to work out again and get onto my beloved rowing machine, without collapsing in a heap. So hell yeah, bring it on!!!

Anticipation Rocks!

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It’s only Thursday and already I am dying for it to be Monday (weigh-in day). Why? Because I know that when I step on the scales I will be at least another pound lighter, which is going to bring me down to 113.whatever. I can’t remember the last time I weighed that. Maybe when I started Uni or something.

So yeah, I can’t wait and I would love to cheat a bit and get on the damn things right now. But I shall be a good girl (for a change) and wait til at least tomorrow morning haha.

Surprises, as well as anticipation, rock too. Today was a particularly difficult day for this whole weight loss thing, as I am down with Tonsillitis and really do crave comfort food. But I got some surprise motivation sent today when I logged into my Facebook and found a message of a rather hot guy who thought I was cute. So if that doesn’t mean I am moving in the right direction then I really don’t know.

And on that note, I am going to curl up in bed with a little satisfied smile on my face and watch Blade (Can’t beat a bit of Wesley).

Size 20 trousers-check!

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Finally, my first real mile stone has been reached. Today I have fit into my first size 20 pair of trousers 🙂 This does wonders for motivation and for my mood, which has been a little down lately. I have about another 10 pairs of jeans and trousers in my wardrobe in which I have not fit for over four years and I can’t wait to get back into them one by one.

It seems to me that the low carbohydrate way is the way for me to go. I have tried it many other ways but this, as we see, is working well. So I will stick to that for now.

Next mini goal 109kg, which is 10lbs away… ten lbs in a month should be doable if I increase my working out a little, but if it takes six weeks then so be it. I just want to get there, but now I know I will 🙂

20 lbs, Uni it’s all good.:-)

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Yesterday was a good day. When I got onto the scales they finally showed 114.6kg. So not just that I am finall . under the 115kg, I have also now lost 20lbs since I have started the whole weight loss thing. This is great motivation and I really can’t wait now do get past the 110kg. 4.6 kg to go…

So tomorrow I am starting into a very motivated week. Even though I have a super sore throat and a bit of a croaky voice my spirits are high.

Another bit of good news came for me two days ago. I got an interview at Edge Hill University 🙂 so, Fingers crossed, if they accept me I will be on my way to becoming a teacher in September.

You know, I think everyone , if they think back,to their school days, remembers that one fat teacher they had. I am so glad that I am definitely not going to be one of those now 🙂

 

Getting there, slowly…

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Ok, so I have been back on the Celebrity Slim for a week now. I started off at 117.8kg and am now weighing in at 115.6kg, which I am most pleased about. Yes it’s nowhere near the 7 lbs I lost in the first week when I did CS in December, but it’s definitely all moving into the right direction. After all, this is the lowest I have weighed in about three years, maybe even four. Mr. W. ( yes he is back on the scene) is all worried that I will weigh less than him in a couple of weeks, which makes me giggle. It’s been years since I weighed less than my partner.

I really need to start working out more regularly. Now that my anaemia is much better, not 100% gone but a lot better, I really should commit a bit more to my workouts. Going to do some Yoga I think, this might just help my knackered rotator cuff too, as swimming is becoming a bit of a nightmare because of it. I enjoy the swims, but Christ are they painful and the night after it is particularly painful despite heat treatment etc..  Other than that I am fine healthwise. I have a lot more energy, now that I actually have some blood to pump around my body and I feel really motivated. Let’s hope everything stays as well as it is going now 🙂

Zauberball Sock Yarn- I’m in love!

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I have joined a group on Facebook called Nadelspiel. It’s a German group about knitting and crochet etc and there I have always seen people talk about a Zauberball. So I got nosey and decided to google it and see what all the hype is about and OMG I was in love.

A Zauberball is a ball of sock yarn in the most amazing colours. You can get them in all sorts of combinations and not just use them for socks. See below what I have come up with.

It’s not finished yet as I am waiting for more yarn to come in at my local shop but yes, it will be a gorgeous shawl once it’s finished. Thinking about working in some beads around the edges, just not sure on the colour. Advice always welcome 🙂

So if you are now just as curious as I got when I heard of the Zauberball then just have a little google for your nearest dealer.

One word of warning though, the yarn is pretty thin so it’s more something for patient knitters and crocheters, but the colour changes are so much fun that the time just flies past.

Back in the pool…What a Feeling!

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Flashdance... What a Feeling

Today was quite a special day for me, well given the fact that it is now 16.41 it still is a special day. Today I had my first proper swim in three years… half a mile in half an hour. Back then it would have been nothing, as I used to swim a lot more and a lot faster than that, but today it was amazing. Feeling the water and my normally rather clumsy body work together like clockwork, feeling every single muscle in my body for the first time in ages was pretty cool. In fact, I was so happy I almost cried.