I bet you are wondering, if I love it so much, why did I stop? Three years ago I got diagnosed with pernicious anaemia after a long time of feeling really, really crap. Like normal anaemia it makes you feel tired but this one also affects your nervous system, which resulted in me not even being able to walk across an open field or go swimming, because my balance was so poor and I got really disorientated and panicky because of it. Life was pretty grim and after a few incidents in the pool where I had really bad palpitations (another symptom) and dizziness, I began getting really anxious just at the thought of having to get into the pool. This anxiety got worse and worse over the years but lately the desire of wanting to get fit and healthy again kind of made me think about swimming again.
For months and months I planned on going and never ended up going, making all sorts of excuses until today while I was working it kind of clicked in my head and I thought, if I don’t go right now I will never go, ever! So, thankfully I work from home which gives me a little flexibility and I told my boss I would take an early lunch and I went. My heart was pounding and I was feeling dizzy again, this time I knew that it was more the anxiety that made me feel like that than the little bit of hay fever that made my head feel all squishy. So I ignored it. Luckily I thought of this scenario so many times that I came prepared and I had put my swim suit under my clothes so I just had to walk in, take my stuff off and get in there. No thinking required.
When my body hit the water it was the most amazing feeling ever, stretching my body as much as I could as I pushed off the pool wall, I felt alive again, a feeling that has been absent for a long time. I am so glad I went. Fingers crossed things stay like that.