This week was less than average so far 😦 Seem to be having to cope with a lot of fatigue and dizzy spells and still got this cold virus lingering, so no working out either. Might have a little ten minute spin on the rower later just to kick start the ole metabolism again, as my weightloss is really slowing down again. Got to start work in five minutes and have no motivation whatsoever… if only i could find a better job
It’s only Thursday and already I am dying for it to be Monday (weigh-in day). Why? Because I know that when I step on the scales I will be at least another pound lighter, which is going to bring me down to 113.whatever. I can’t remember the last time I weighed that. Maybe when I started Uni or something.
So yeah, I can’t wait and I would love to cheat a bit and get on the damn things right now. But I shall be a good girl (for a change) and wait til at least tomorrow morning haha.
Surprises, as well as anticipation, rock too. Today was a particularly difficult day for this whole weight loss thing, as I am down with Tonsillitis and really do crave comfort food. But I got some surprise motivation sent today when I logged into my Facebook and found a message of a rather hot guy who thought I was cute. So if that doesn’t mean I am moving in the right direction then I really don’t know.
And on that note, I am going to curl up in bed with a little satisfied smile on my face and watch Blade (Can’t beat a bit of Wesley).
I bet you are wondering, if I love it so much, why did I stop? Three years ago I got diagnosed with pernicious anaemia after a long time of feeling really, really crap. Like normal anaemia it makes you feel tired but this one also affects your nervous system, which resulted in me not even being able to walk across an open field or go swimming, because my balance was so poor and I got really disorientated and panicky because of it. Life was pretty grim and after a few incidents in the pool where I had really bad palpitations (another symptom) and dizziness, I began getting really anxious just at the thought of having to get into the pool. This anxiety got worse and worse over the years but lately the desire of wanting to get fit and healthy again kind of made me think about swimming again.
For months and months I planned on going and never ended up going, making all sorts of excuses until today while I was working it kind of clicked in my head and I thought, if I don’t go right now I will never go, ever! So, thankfully I work from home which gives me a little flexibility and I told my boss I would take an early lunch and I went. My heart was pounding and I was feeling dizzy again, this time I knew that it was more the anxiety that made me feel like that than the little bit of hay fever that made my head feel all squishy. So I ignored it. Luckily I thought of this scenario so many times that I came prepared and I had put my swim suit under my clothes so I just had to walk in, take my stuff off and get in there. No thinking required.
When my body hit the water it was the most amazing feeling ever, stretching my body as much as I could as I pushed off the pool wall, I felt alive again, a feeling that has been absent for a long time. I am so glad I went. Fingers crossed things stay like that.